Everything, Everywhere, All at Once

In life, there's so much I've come to realize in my first quarter of the school year. I've come to more deeply appreciate the people around me and their influence. But at the same time, this first quarter was also harsh and wistful. It was staying at school until 7PM  almost every day. It was the jeepney rides and the days we braved raging typhoons. It was the overwhelming feeling of everything, the dreams I had to let go of, the words I wished I had spoken, and the actions I wished I had taken. 

The biggest challenge this quarter was probably myself and my time. I found it incredibly hard to manage and work with it efficiently. In this desperate attempt to manage my time, I was always busy and tired. My sleep barely reached five hours a day, which I found dreadful. This was my desperate way of trying to survive the 1st quarter.

But with this inability to manage my time, I was also surrounded by people willing to help me and offer so much love and support. They understood instead of judging my struggles. And with their support, I eventually managed to find my way and crawl out of that hole I had dug for myself.

Moving forward, I will try and try until I can't anymore. I knew we had different situations and dreams, different ways of coping and handling things. But I know that my first quarter was full of trying and loving. I know that it was also full of life. It was full. I was full. I've filled its cup with enough blood, sweat, and tears, and a good laugh. What a privilege it is to have been filled. What a privilege to have been made.

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